picts taken at 3.02am iin da murniin last nyte [230908]
ii criiously kant put maself turh bed . everytyme ii closed
my eyes , ol da pains jus came crashin down on miie ..
[insertin a fake smile]
ouhkayys .. tiinks happened so fast .. ppl changed .
ii jus kant stop anytiink frm happenin . ii mean ,
hu da hell in dis world can ?? T.T yea well ,
ii jus dun wish turh tok abt wad happened fer da past
few daes .. iits over so wad fer drag dem back &
stress my mind ol over agaen huhhs ? anywaes ,
lately , fer ol da caused dat hab happened , ii admit ...
iits kinda my fault too kayys ?? iim nort tryina dig back
frm da past & put da blame on dem .. as hu ii m , ii noe
we ol r rong .. but mayb its miie .. ish it jus miie or m ii
actualli still dreamin ? no , no .. ZZZzzzZZZzzzZZZ
ii've benn tiinkin lately .. ii realized dat at tymes ,
ii gort selfish & ii do tiinks dat without even realizin
how much iim reali hurtin da ppl arnd miie ..
but den agaen , wad's done ish done .. ii dun wanna tok abt it .
hoping 1 dae , ii cud sae their names & smile at da same tyme
lyk ii used turh in da past . iim ouhkayys , iim ouhkayys ..
ii've lost dem , ii nebba wanna lose yoos nxt ..
ii noe yoos hab ur own probs & obstacles too .
dun worry abt mie ouhkayys ? ii'll b fine .
cuz its yoos dat iim owaes worried abt ..
though we hab each other by our sides ,
der will owaes b our little fights ..
wen iim wiib yoos ,
iim more den happie ..
iim glad dat iits owaes yoos & miie ..
sumtiinks jus nort ryte though ,
its nort abt any fwens or foe ..
but its yoos .. even wen iim wiib yoos by ur lyfe , yoos nebba let miie in .
ii cared & ii noe its reali hard turh share .. cuz yoos urself saed dat yoos've
been alot of tough tiinks alone , by urself . yoos saed no1 wud understand yoos ..
but trust miie , even iif ii gotta sacrifice my lyfe jus turh understand yoos , ii will .
wake up dear & realize dat yoos gotta try turh chances & trust ..
wad do yoos take miie fer ? yoos may looked bothered at tymes but yoos jus
wont show it . ii dunnoe how , but ii jus knew it . wadeva it is ,
ii wanna laugh ,
& b happie wiib yoos ..
ii wana cry ,
& b sad wiib yoos ..
ii wanna enter ur lyfe ,
& owaes b wiib yoos ..
bcus dear , ii wan yoos turh noe dat ii'll owaes lurf yoos ~
dey walked ,
she crossed .
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